Monday, August 18, 2008


Four Poems for Robin

Gary Snyder

Siwashing It Out Once in Suislaw Forest

I slept under-----rhododendron
All night-----blossoms fell
Shivering on a sheet of cardboard
Feet stuck-----in my pack
Hands deep-----in my pockets
Barely able -----to -----sleep.
I remembered-----when we were in school
Sleeping together---in a big warm bed
We were----- the youngest lovers
When we broke up -----we were still nineteen
Now our---friends are married
You teach school back east
I dont mind----living this way
Green hills----the long blue beach
But sometimes ------sleeping in the open
I think back-----when I had you.

A Spring Night in Shokoku-ji

Eight years ago this May
We walked under cherry blossoms
At night in an orchard in Oregon.
All that I wanted then
Is forgotten now, but you.
Here in the night
In a garden of the old capital
I feel the trembling ghost of Yugao
I remember your cool body
Naked under a summer cotton dress.

An Autumn Morning in Shokoku-ji

Last night watching the Pleiades,
Breath smoking in the moonlight,
Bitter memory like vomit
Choked my throat.
I unrolled a sleeping bag
On mats on the porch
Under thick autumn stars.
In dream you appeared
(Three times in nine years)
Wild, cold, and accusing.
I woke shamed and angry:
The pointless wars of the heart.
Almost dawn. Venus and Jupiter.
The first time I have
Ever seen them close.

December at Yase

You said, that October,
In the tall dry grass by the orchard
When you chose to be free,
"Again someday, maybe ten years."

After college I saw you
One time. You were strange.
And I was obsessed with a plan.

Now ten years and more have
Gone by: I've always known
where you were--
I might have gone to you
Hoping to win your love back.
You still are single.

I didn't.
I thought I must make it alone. I
Have done that.

Only in dream, like this dawn,
Does the grave, awed intensity
Of our young love
Return to my mind, to my flesh.

We had what the others
All crave and seek for;
We left it behind at nineteen.

I feel ancient, as though I had
Lived many lives.
And may never now know
If I am a fool
Or have done what my
----- karma demands.

1 comment:

sam of the ten thousand things said...

Enjoyed this piece, Nick. Snyder is one of my heroes.